Monday, December 21, 2009

everything is possible when you have faith.

Okay, so I've been pretty bad about this whole following k-love's encouraging word of the day thing. Forgive me? Good.

I would write about today's but I've got other things on my mind. I'm pretty much incredibly stressed out right now, and I'm trying really hard to keep faith and not give up hope.

My grandma bought me a new ring the other day. It has the words "Everything is possible when you have faith" inscribed on it and I'm pretty much in love with that quote. It's been helpful the last few days when I've been stressed to look down and see those words on my finger. It's really a great reminder.

However, I wish I didn't need a ring to remind me that God is here with me through everything and through my faith in Him I can do anything. I mean sure it's nice and I love that the whole world can see the love I have for the Lord but I feel like I'm just going through the motions in my spiritual walk. The song Motions by Mark Schultz pretty much describes how I've been feeling lately.

I went to church yesterday for the first time in a month or so. And it felt amazing. I forgot how great it made me feel, even if I was running on only 4 hours of sleep. I know you don't have to attend church to have faith and be a Christian, but it's a big part of it for me. To know I am surrounded by all of these other people who share the same love for Christ as I do. It's such an overwhelmingly amazing feeling.

I am just ranting. So I apologize. But when I'm stressed writing just keeps my mind off of other things. I know no one reads this, but it's nice to pretend. Right? Right.

Anyway, I was flipping through the bible (And by that I really mean I was browsing the bible online. Technology is really amazing these days, isn't it?) looking for some sort of verse to help me get through these troubled times and I found a lot, but this one really made me smile and feel better instantly.

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. (Psalm 46:1-3)

It just reminds me that even if the world was coming to an end, God is still there. And He always will be. He's one man who will never break your heart, one friend who will never betray you. And I am so thankful for that.

Friday, December 18, 2009

2 John 1:3

Have you ever listened to K-Love? It's a Christian-based radio station, and I must say it's pretty life changing. If you live in the Kansas City area, tune into 97.3 sometime. You'll fall in love with it! It's pretty much all I listen to anymore, and my iTunes has been expanded so much in so little time.

Anyway, the point of this is that every day on their website, (www.klove.com you can also listen online!) they have an "encouraging word" of the day. A verse from the bible. And everyday when I wake up I check klove.com to read it, and I sit and I think about how it applies to my life. I figured that I need something to write about on here when I'm not posting pictures and such, so everyday I will write k-love's encouraging word of the day and talk about it. :)

Grace, mercy, and peace, which come from God the Father and from Jesus Christ—the Son of the Father—will continue to be with us who live in truth and love. 2 John 1:3

I love this verse so much. I think it's so true. Those of us who live in the truth and love of our Father will be granted with grace and mercy and peace. I've noticed that since the drastic change I've made in my life, sure I've lost a few important people to me, but I'm happy. I'm peaceful. I've been forgiven and it feels so amazing. God has granted me his mercy. His hands are always holding me and that is such an amazing feeling. I feel so free and I couldn't ask for anything more!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

changes.

"Something has changed within me, something is not the same…-"Defying Gravity" from Wicked

I listened to that song this morning, and while the whole song itself does not describe what I'm feeling, those few short words do. Something has definitely changed within me since I moved to Lawrence a few months ago. But it wasn't something good. While I was rediscovering my relationship with God while here, everything else in me was changing. I still wasn't living for Him the way I should be. For Him and only Him. Not for anyone else. And that's what I've been trying to do.

So while my change recently has been bad, I'm turning it around into a good change. I wasn't headed down the wrong path, just away from the good path. So I'm turning around, changing directions, and am going to slowly make my way down the right path. It's what I want to do, and it's what I have to do. I want to be in the right. I can’t keep living a certain way because that’s what people want or expect from me. Yeah, maybe a few months back I didn’t even believe in God, but you know, I met somebody that changed that for me. He opened my eyes to the Lord and I am so very thankful for that.

changes.

"Something has changed within me, something is not the same…-"Defying Gravity" from Wicked

I listened to that song this morning, and while the whole song itself does not describe what I'm feeling, those few short words do. Something has definitely changed within me since I moved to Lawrence a few months ago. But it wasn't something good. While I was rediscovering my relationship with God while here, everything else in me was changing. I still wasn't living for Him the way I should be. For Him and only Him. Not for anyone else. And that's what I've been trying to do.

So while my change recently has been bad, I'm turning it around into a good change. I wasn't headed down the wrong path, just away from the good path. So I'm turning around, changing directions, and am going to slowly make my way down the right path. It's what I want to do, and it's what I have to do. I want to be in the right. I can’t keep living a certain way because that’s what people want or expect from me. Yeah, maybe a few months back I didn’t even believe in God, but you know, I met somebody that changed that for me. He opened my eyes to the Lord and I am so very thankful for that.

Monday, December 14, 2009

uh...

I wish I had something to write about. I just have an urge to just WRITE but nothing to say. I need inspiration. INSPIRE ME!